Okay, so my adorable little Sunshine is getting bigger everyday!!! It still blows my mind that she is almost 10 months old! I feels like it has been so much longer since I had her... And good news, I have lost all the weight except like 5 lbs! I get to see her ever few weeks, at least once a month I go up there for Sunday evening dinner, or I stop by if I just happen to make my way up through Salt Lake. I was at her family's house when I found out about Kelton, and I am insanely grateful to her parents for dealing with my mental self the day after. I seriously could not have picked better people to be my little darlings parents! I hope her whole family knows how much I love and appreciate them!
Such a thoughtful little cutie!
I really miss being pregnant sometimes. I was lucky that I had such an easy pregnancy, because it left a good taste in my mouth about the whole baby-growing ordeal. The downside to this is that I wish I was pregnant alot, because I like having a sweet little baby all cuddled up and warm inside me. It just made me happy. But annoyingly enough, I still have just under 3 years left of college, and I don't want to stop halfway.
And on the topic of college, I just started my first semester of Brigham Young University!!! Its crazy to think that I'm finally where I know I'm supposed to be. The summer before I got pregnant, my family and I travelled up to Montana to visit our extended family and we stopped in Salt Lake to visit all the historical things there. I absolutely loved it, and although at the time I wanted to go to Montana for school, I secretly knew I needed to come to Utah. But then, at one of the most critical times in life, I found myself pregnant, and my life was basically put on hold.
Although I still went to school and worked through my pregnancy, there were days when I thought I would never get anywhere in life. There were days when I was so absolutely sure that I would never get out of San Angelo and that no decent man would ever love me again. I thought I would be miserable forever. In the ten months since I placed Sunshine, I have had all of these things proven wrong. God is awesome like that.
Now this summer has been very challenging. Between moving and trying to make new friends, Kelton dying, and all the stress of school and money, I would have to say it equals, if not surpasses, the summer I spent in Texas pregnant. But with this new school year, I am realizing that everything I have been through the last two years has brought me to this exact place at this time for a reason. Every time things get so difficult that I just want to give up, I remind myself that what I'm looking for is out there somewhere, and every day is just a moment closer to him.
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